media player playing: cannonball - damien rice

came back around 12 plus. tired out but had fun hanging out with my frens. jean's bday celebration today and she got a super BIG ang pao frm all of us. and how much in it? more than 90 bucks. go ask jean for a treat hahah. had dinner at riverside indonesia restaurant, guess u guys have seen the advert on tv. the food's great, pricey? i think it's ok.. considering that it's a restaurant and you'll get a pretty nice view of the spore river. =) my recommendation would be the chendol costing $5.50 and err... this bbq fish that cost think 18 bucks? lol. but it's really nice!!

went over to ttc and had a drink. wasn't pleased with the staff over there and confronted them. oops. that's us. hahah.. we not happy we'll say. and in the end the manager apologised and had a 'small talk' with his staff. so mean rite? mmmmm

jean didnt fall for our trick when we put this 'dead cockroach' in her cake, she jus threw it on the ground without noticing it and chin wee thought she swallowed it. LOL. but hey woman hope you'll enjoy urself and it's jus a few weeks more before we officially leave np (if we pass all our papers, im sure we will!!) so hang on tight and treasure the last few weeks together. gonna miss all the times we had. cheers to our friendship!! =)

presentation on monday, project mtg on monday. project due on tuesday, one next week and another the following week and before i knew it, it's the exams. WOAH... yeah!! sch's gonna end soon. hahaha.

eh.. sorry lar im not gg for banquet. haiy.. i really dont like this kind of thing lar. im damn broke. im serious. anyways.. i'll still see jen and eliz lar. though perhaps not in youth ministry, we still can go nite cycling. hahahah.. and jen pls take GOOD care of ur leg. eliz... i like ur blog. lol. continue writing cos im reading. =)

LOVE every single one of you. precious people. *a big slippery, slimy kiss*

i've been very rude. upsetting those ard me. stepping on their toes. and have been really sarcastic. sorry. =( sorry if i've been not sensitive enough to care abt ur feelings. sorry if i've been rude and jus spount nonsense. sorry sorry. i'll learn to think before i speak. learn to care abt ur feelings.

did filming for wisp project. had loads of fun fighting, talking crap, and most importantly -- LAUGH. Thank God for ah yuan.. if he didnt come all the way frm convention to blk 50, doubt we can finish it that fast. thanks man.. yea lar yea lar will remember ur honey lemon. and u shld also remember my gift frm ur trip. LOL.

nite cycling on fri nite. abeely might be joining if he can, erny might be joining if he wants to. hahha. who else?? just give me a buzz. =)

worked as a surveyor over the weekends. money no easy earn!!! (translate to chinese) wah.. it's crazy to walk on the streets and approach people. earned like peanuts. waste time. lol. rhoda and i will not be gg back there again. LOL.

did radio today. it was HAHAHA. elieen was damn crappy, dont know what's up with her. we just laughed and laughed on air. had fun.. till i saw my chinese music director. hahah. scared of him lar. he's the CMD afterall and he's so zai at radio. anyways, elieen and i have someone who dont like. hahah. she's my ex project grp mate. oh man.. work with her can die. thank God.. she's no longer in my class. so mean hor.

went ktv with mh, xin and christine. christine.. i love ur voice!!!! she really can sing lor! zai zai zai!! had loads of fun shaking, swaying to the music. xin and hui jumpin on the seats, christine's butt still on the seat. LOL. oh. and that song on birthmark. hiliarious. =)

YA BA YA BA DOOOOOOO!!!

common tests are finally over!!! time to party~~!! man.. i've never felt so stressed up over common tests before. maybe this is my last sem is sch, so got to push myself a wee bit harder. pray hard i'll pass everything. =)

after the last test yesterday, the few of us went over to vienna at novena to have buffet dinner!!! omg!! the food there is fantastic!! we had a sumptuous meal. *licks fingers* the seafood, the sharkfin soup, the desserts, the cocktail, the abalone fried rice and salmon. (yes.. i do hear ur stomach growling) paid only 28 bucks cos our dearest-ever-so-generous raymond treated us 10 bucks each!! thanks man!! =)

stayed home the whole of today, need to finish the sig tunes for radio heatwave. my voice is dirt weird but had fun mixing the music and recording my voice. =) will be meeting my net for dinner later. yeah. can talk again!!

jin lun called yest to ask if nydc accept nets. hmmm.. no they dont. apply for visa or master ba. it comes in handy!!! anyways.. take care. talk to u soon. =)

time check: 1.19am, Monday

media player playing: unfailing love - chris tomlin, steven curtis

mum received a call at abt 8plus pm, sunday. looked over, saw her face changed and her last words to the caller was--- take care. mum walked over to my dad and said "your eldest sis went to be with the Lord."

my da gu passed away. peacefully? i dont know but i do know she's in heaven, which is good. reason for her death? cancer. the c word that everyone avoids and detests. i didnt cry, maybe the fact hasnt sink in yet and furthermore, im not very close to her. i hardly talk to her jus say hi when she comes over.

i realised that death is inevitable, life is so fragile. you can die by choking on fishballs. you can die when u get caught in a bomb attack by some dumb assholes. you can die, inflicted with diseases and watever sickness. you die when you're old.

are u afraid of death? afraid of dying? actually, im not. im jus afraid of seeing ppl cry, seeing the pain of losing some loved ones. i just want things or people to stay intact- forever. let's be realistic, ppl wont be alive for forever.

before regretting, y not give ur frens a call and say how much u appreciate them. ask them out for dinner, talk to ur mum and dad and give them a little hug. do the things u wanna do and treat every single day as if it's ur last.

to my frens out there. you you you you and you. thanks, thanks for being there when i needed u. my church frens who stood by me when im down spiritually, emotionally. my sec and poly mates who went thru the toughest time of sch with me. to mum and dad and sammie boy i love u guys.

i enjoyed the whole 18 yrs of my life, becos there's u guys. thank you. I LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS!!!

im not supposed to be online but let me jus blog for jus a while ya? im gg thru audit now. sucks. bleah. -__-"

oh funny incident in the bus on my way back home. was with ray and eugene in bus 154. you know those seats where one whole row u face each other that kind? so this hwa chong college girl was sitting next to me. she was sleeping and soooo hilarious!!! she kept moving her head frm one side to the other. and her hair is so messy lor, her head almost landed on mine and the other lady over at her other side. her head went 360 degrees. im serious!!! dead serious!!

ray, eugene and me were trying to control ourselves not to laugh. but i ended up laughing lar. i mean i havent seen anyone sleeping like tat before. and u know what?? the bus broke down halfway!! thank God we were at clementi so hee no need take another bus. bus stopped and ppl alighted, and that hwa chong girl is still asleep!!!!! (yes, moving her heads of cos) so i poke poke her. hahahaha.

the 3 of us walked towards mrt station and i was telling them it's ok to laugh at ppl sometimes (ok, i know im mean) cos if not life is really boring. jus observe the things/ppl around you, they can make ur life a wee bit more exciting.

smile along the way, laugh at urself and especially others.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH. =)

Feeling: very bored

was reading some of the peoples' blog. i realised. life can be quite boring sometimes or rather interesting. fine, i know im contradicting things again. i looked at my life.. wat im doin the past few days. damn. it's way too mundane.

morning wake up and rush for sch.
sch till 4 or 5pm
reach home take a nap till 6 plus
dinner + watch tv till 8pm.
tutorials till dont know wat time + internet

ha. it's a routined lifestyle. it happens almost everyday for 365days (well probably 2/3 of it) watch out man. next 2 wks will be hell for me again. it's common test wk and gosh im gg to pia for all my modules?

i told sandy today in class. " i see accounting. i hate it to the core. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH"
yes that 'argh' was pretty long. hahaha. i cant wait to leave sch. poly is fun - frens, walk ard sch aimlessly and prolly lose some wt, buy food into lecture threatre. i've counted. i've got 10 more weeks till i offically leave NP, accountancy. wait, i still got attathment for 4 months?!!!

Lord, i jus pray that you'll help me thru.
amen.

so in the end pf didnt come for our show. i was kinda disappointed cos i though she would really try to make it. lol.. she's not obligated to come lar. but somehow... i had this feelin she'd try her best. maybe maybe she just returned from her trip and feelin really tired. hiay. im still feelin a little disappointed. hahaha. ppl say " dont have high hopes ar.. the higher ur hopes are, the harder you'll fall" true. my hopes r high that she'll come for show. but in the end it wasnt meant to be.

next time. no chance alr lar. i've only got a few more wks in heatwave. say 5 or 6? so short rite? then i'll be away for attatchment and say bye bye to sch. which i may be lookin forward to. lol. my radio stint in sch is jus way to short. not shiok lar. hahah. but still, it's something perhaps not many ppl hav the chance to do.

dream Big dreams. i'll still stick to that dream of mine. to be heard on spore radio station someday. laugh? laugh all u want. i dont care. i jus want to do want i like. i dont know how im gg to do it. but i'll try.

you are accountable for how u lead ur life, isnt it?