Last Day

It's still playing: the blower's daughter

no lar... i didn't select the 'replay' button on my hi-fi, it's coincidence the song it's playing again. hahaah. :)

no heavy hearts, no tears. nothing. that's how i felt the whole of today. i know.. i should be glad that i'm finally done with work and can go rot at home and wash bedsheets but somehow.. i don't feel that way too.

MR was feeling so excited for me.. hahah.. err... how come you're excited? and i'm not? finished up some outstanding work, pending documents and whatever that needed to be accounted for. All done in just 8 hrs. heh. i'm superwoman.. =D

MR asked if i'll miss boss... i nodded a wee bit. heh. surprising hor? i remembered the first few times i saw her, man.. i'm simply shaking and terrified. but.. when V left, i got no choice but to work with her. i basically prayed everyday for her and for me lar. and thank God. she's quite nice though, she doesn't scold me (maybe i'm not a perm or my work's well done) hahah. so it's really good to see her tone down since the first few days when i got in.

i saw her.. hmm..before lunch. when i got back from lunch, i only saw her back and her hands full carrying bags and files. her last words? Bye... not to me but to my manager. hahahah. she didn't see me lar, but she left me with a email thanking me for the help... i wasn't much help actually, i hope i didn't yue bang yue mang. hahaha. and that i'll enjoy my long holidays before i resume my studies. heh. yeah.. at this pt, im missing her a bit. hahah.

u know how human being works? when at that pt of time u really wanna leave, u die die wanna go no matter what.. but when it's time to go, you find it a bit difficult? life contradicts itself. humans contradit themselves. funny.

i'll miss MR too.. my lunch kaki along with skinny when V left. initially i thought she's someone difficult to talk to.. or doesn't open to ppl easily. maybe she does still... perhaps, i'm a superwoman. hahahaha. people just can't help talking to me... (ok.. maybe not all) haha. :)

but.. eh.. she's okay. i always enjoy sharing experiences with her, school, work, family, even believer of christ and non-believer of christ stuff. plus.. she's a mei nu!!! so i like her all the more. hahaha. =P

MR won't have anyone to lunch with... but i'll drop by raffles when i'm free. i'll announce it over here!! i'm very very very free!! but, i'll like to rest. not do anything. just read my books, listen to my daimen rice, go blade or jog. life sometimes should be like that. enjoy what life can/cannot offer. heh.

still remember what i said abt my manager? how cool and be associated with funny? i now know why she's cool and funny at the same time. she was damn busy today.. she spoke on the phone for a while, when she hung up. she said "wah.. si bei stress ah... " err.... i was like... hmmmmmmmmmmm.............................

she really look THAT cool but what she said.. HAHAHAHAHAHA. doesn't complement how she looks you know? it's like a cow mewing instead of mooing. lol.

boss called to get something done since she's out at a meeting and wants to speak to manager. but manager not around so i ran to get her.

me: (after i've managed to find manager) boss on the line, at my table.
manager: (frantically looking for the phone) hello.. yea yea yea.. then bla bla bla.....
huh? no lar.. then bla bla bla ....
(after manager hung up) wah.. all these ppl wanna scare me ar..
me: (.....................)

did u get it? HAHHAHAAH. goodness. she's dirt funny. HAHAHAHA.

the next 12 hrs.. i predict i'll be lying in bed having a long good snooze. =D

it's singing: the blower's daughter - damien rice

my third time playing this cd on my hi-fi. gosh.. this fellow is good lar. hmmm. my kind of music. hahaha. :)

i had a thought in the morning while listening.. how nice if i'm cruising down the expressways, with the cd blasting in the car, windows wind down and the wind blowing into my face. WOW... i think that is 2nd to heaven. hahahah.

talking about driving.. err.. yea lar, someday then i go find driving teacher k?

i've got an eye infection. GASP!! you use renu solution? no lar.. hahhaa. i think sth got into my eye while i was at east coast yesterday, felt the pain in the afternoon and got worse at night, and i finally saw the swollen-ness in the morning.

it feels really weird to see my eyes one big one small.. and yes, got to give up that contacts of mine till.. it's fine to wear it again. poor eyes..

it's playing cannonball now!! nice. :)

it's singing: cheers darlin' - damien rice

it's jin lun's 21st bday today... so to my dearest fren HAPPY BIRTHDAY. =D

i saw him today at east coast while i was cycling, well he was supposed to be there to do some stuff for his bbq but somehow he didn't bring anything. err.. y huh? hmmm.. wo bu zhi dao. wo zhen de bu zhi dao. hahahah.

so he called me several times to ask where was i. yea lar yea lar.. u miss me lar, wanna see me right? hahah. hahaha. so he still look the same, probably tan-ner now, guess it's been a few months since i last saw him over dinner at east coast.

hey if you realise, the place where i met you is err..somewhere outside coasta sands resort, was it where we had our youth camp and where i got to know you too? or was it the other one huh? hahaha.. and anyways, JL wore the t shirt i bought for him over at hk. heh. fits him to a T lar. =D so i've promised to get him sth monkeyish over at the land of the rising sun..

he reads my blog.. so JL, treat me to err... dinner/lunch or watever when you're out? hahahah. Lin got to come too, 3 of us!! have a splashing good time, and may the coming years be totally awesome. and yes, continue to love Him, serve Him in all ways. =)

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today's weather was perfect to just go and cycle at east coast. heh. i KNOW how to blade down slopes le!!! :) so proud of myself. hahaha. the secret to not falling down the slope is NOT DO ANYTHING. yes.. don't do anything lar, let the wheels do the job and ta-da back to safety zone.

headed to town, went to gramophone and unexpectedly splurged on a new cd. it's by damien rice and the cd was released in 2003. goodness.. it's not a 'new' cd afterall. hahaha. i heard his song the blower's daughter over at a cd shop in marina. the price tag of it was $20.90. was dirt tempted to buy it but nah...

while i was at gramophone, my kapo mouth go and ask the salesperson if they've got damien rice cd. then the fellow introduced me other cds which is pretty similar to damien rice. singers like err.. robert post.

blasting amie right now. i think this cd is totally worth it. and nope i didn't pay 20.90 for it. it cost me 18.90. heh. if i've got time then i'll upload the songs to my blog's song list lar.

dirt good. :)

i like her

the first day i saw her.. i thought.. hmmm... she's a somebody.

no lar, she's not fann wong or zoe tay or zhang zhi yi. she's my manager. heh. well.. i'm not directly under her but indirectly helping her.

i think i've mentioned before. she is damn cool. well.. damn is not really a suitable word, how bout Dirt cool.. yea lor yea lor. she's dirt cool. she exudes a silent air of confidence which charmed the people around her (including me of cos) heh. =D

i think she's funny too. yea lor yea lor. funny. hahahah. i don't understand y, but cool can be associated with funny. i think can lar hor? maybe i shld try take a photo with her next wk. hmmm..

i like her. :)

The Land of the rising sun

it's confirmed. stamped. double chopped. i'm gg to the land of the rising sun at end march!! =D =D =D

hmm.. i heard you guys saying.. "wau lau.. so good." hahah. =D

maybe.. i might just be one of those millions waving that the land of the rising sun (ese) flag in time to come. hahahah. yeah right. i actually came up with a list of must buy items in the land of the rising sun.

1. wallet (those super kinky ones, or really girly ones)
2. earings
3. shoes!! cos.. i'm running out of it..
4. bags. of cos shld get bags..
5. jacket (i'm searching for a nice one)
6. tee shirts or jeans (not doubly sure abt getting it)
7. food!! (yes, though they do sell jap food in spore)

The estimated cost of all the above items would be... a shocking S$1000++. yeah, bet you're shocked too. hahahah. no lar, crazy lor to spend that much in the land of the rising sun... hahhaa

my ma was saying.. "eh... don't buy anything .. so expensive!!" right. the bible says we must obey our parents so yup, i will buy don't buying anything that's so... expensive. i interpret my mum's sentence as.. don't buy anything that's so expensive, but you can buy things that aren't really pocket burning. heh. =D

in the mean time... i shall go look for my basic the land of the rising sun (ese) language notes.. where did i put it? hmmm.... :)

Maybe....

i felt really alone that morning. it's... it's just weird not saying Hi to anybody, or.. seeing familiar faces, sitting all alone and well.. not at the usual seat. and of cos hitting somebody's buttocks. hahahah. OEI, i'm not psycho k.. that's how we show our love for each other. =P All in all, it's just weird.

i do miss..yea. the old place, the old faces. man.. i grew up there lor. heh... and i was thinking.. did i make a wrong decision? is it really this place? or.....

J was saying "come back lar"

hmm.... i really don't know man. but i really doubt so i'll go back cos i think what they offered me the other side is really better, i do enjoy it but.. maybe it's really the loneliness.

so i msged my gang that night.. i'm gg to meet u for lunch, so keep it free. :) and yup, we're mtg for lunch. heh.

guide me...

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handed in my report yesterday. phew.. finally man. i think i got so gan cheong that sunday night and hmmm.. got quite a few ppl pissed. oops. sorry lar.. gan cheong gan cheong.

sorry...

so went to sch fast fast to get it printed, met up with ray, mich in sch. the headed to ktv with ray before meeting the rest for dinner. then while in the ktv room, we somehow realised that i realised i never submit my report online!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh.

gan cheong gan cheong. 4 plus. by 5pm need to submit. gan cheong gan cheong.

i took my laptop and ran to macs for internet connection.. sharks, how come cannot connect??!! so i RAN home. sat on the sofa and... clicked the submit button. phew... :) that whole of 2 days was a very gan cheong gan cheong day for me.

i'm singing: lonely - Akon

i told V last sunday:

me: you know hor.. i've got this feeling lately. it seems that i have many friends, but when i wanna ask someone out, like nobody i can ask you know...

V: hao you man tian xia (frends everywhere). hahah. but it's hard to find that really close ones. got 2 or 3 can steal laugh (dou xiao).

is this happening to me? or you, reading this gg thru what i'm gg thru? hahah i've been feeling lonely lately. hahahah. it's either my frens aren't close ones, so no pt asking them out cos it's a bit weird. or.. those not bad close ones are all attached. what is happening to this world man? hahaha.

i couldn't find anyone to go watch i not stupid too with me, so......... if i'm desperate, i might just go alone lar. hahahah. imagine crying in the threatres alone.

i shan't think about it.

Reasons

heh. the title of this post reminded of the song you are the reason which is posted on my blog's song list.

i think... almost everything, or anything has got its reason for happening/appearing/or doing it. but to some extend i still believe that certain things need not have any explaination. it speaks for itself.

boss asked me today if i wanna extend after feb (which i will end my work) hmm... my ans was a no.. i felt bad actually for not staying.. because she's pregnant, she's the only person in the team after i leave and i think the next VT coming in will be mid march. then she got to teach all over again. i think it'll be hard for her... plus all the other stuff that probably will pile up.

she's actually quite nice to me, buy food for me (that's y me fat. hahah) and she doesn't scold me lar. hahhaha. she's quite okay. *then stay lar!!*

the inner me wanna get away from what i'm doing now. i just want to do sth different.. maybe no more office work cos i'm not desk bound person and i like moving round. so i really dont mind waitressing job though the hrs r long, money's little. at least i'll probably enjoy the whole process of moving around. heh. =D

i guess being tied up to sth i don't like for the past 3 yrs is really drawing me away. yup, i'll be breaking free soon. and i think i should be kind and nicer to myself - do what i like. heh. =D

btw, anyone knows is there any gd medicine or remedy for persistant dry cough? boss seems to be coughing quite badly though.

blog's singing: who am i - casting crowns

V came for service today and she was late. tsk tsk... you live a few stations away.. but anyways, glad she came. cos she didn't miss out something that i consider really really good. today's service was good ( i realised my vocab has got only good and nth else. hahaah) okay.. how bout excellent!! (did it make any difference?) hahaha.

mulitiplying small me.. Y smsed me to cont bring V and that i'm mulitiplying!! yeah!! hahaha. felt so happy today lar. cos.. somehow i think i've got some use today. hahahah. =D cos i brought somebody!! heh.

to end it off: i stole this where somewhere but.. the pastor did say this jus that i couldnt catch the whole of it.

God + Nothing = MAJORITY
Majority - God = NOTHING.

the Fs...

This is the flower that is sitting beautifully on my desk now. =D Got this flower from a manager who bought like so MANY flowers for the ppl in LA. and since i got to meet my gfs that evening i went to the florist and bought 3 flowers for them!!







Yup.. the flowers still in their packaging. looks really nice and beautiful hor? i chose 3 bright bright colours cos those 3 ladies have coloured this very boring life of mine. hahahah. *pui pui pui*



Down to essential brews...

Yup... the 3 flowers finally out of their packaging. really nice nice nice hor? wah.. i got gd taste lar. hahaha. =D jo and jen were trying to capture this 3 beauty on their cam phones.. but i guess the best shot got to go my 3 mega pix camera!! hahah.. it's scary how hp cam gets better each time round. jo has got 2 mega pix cam phone!! *bleah.. *






heh. flowers and owner. me leh? aiya.. i didn't bring my flower there.. so it's only them lor. anyways.. they aren't cam shy ppl so it doesnt really matter to them taking more photos. they want it so much lor!!!!!!!!



right after essential, we went on to pool. 7-11 to get drinks and finally to my hse void deck and play diao yu.. heh. man.. can we just GO for another holiday? pls pls pls....

tonight is the night...

where i'll meet my hong kong kakis!! =D essentials again becos that's our fav hangout. the tea.. the nuggets, the cushions, the baby potatoes, the waiter... hahaha.. and of course the dai dis lar... we've never failed to have a few games of dai dis (almost) everywhere we go. hahahah.

jen was complaining to me prob a month ago that we havent met up for a pretty long time.. yea lar. you all lor!! not free not free... all's not free except me.. hahhaha. i said i promise to organise no matter what so TA-DA!! i'm meant to be in the events management industry. hahhaha. =D

i remember we were pretty addicted to the game of dai di.. right after our hk trip which was almost a yr ago!! then they came to my hse and played dai di thru out.. we talked.. prayed.. (no we didn't lar. hahah) but i think the fellowship was really good. cos basically we're ard the age except for.. you know who..=P

eh.. maybe we shld go for one more holiday trip together minus chris and cj. hehe. but.. time doesn't permit lar. and money too. heh. it's really funny how a trip changes relationship. that's what jen said one day.. yup yup.. it can either break or bring. bring ur r/s with other ppl to a higher level or simply... see that person in a (bad) light. hahhaah. but our hk trip brought us together (closer lar)

as the saying goes: it's not the matter of where you're going but who you're going with.

see ya guys later!! :)

sticky sticky

i'm still stuck with report. grrr.. my brain can't think and i don't know what else i can write though my LO said there's a lot of things u can write about. huh? i didn't do too well for my interim report then hmmm... final report got to cheong. if not... got to repeat attachment!!! hahaha kidding. should be able to pass as long as i hand up my company assessment and a resonable report. =D

stuck-tis-is. grrrr....

oh.. mr, skinny and me did something crazy today. i emailed them and asked if they wanted to go down town during lunch (which is just an hr to go catch mary!) hahaha. MR didn't mind, skinny wanted to see glenn glenn glenn... so when the clock stirkes 12.30 (nope, we're not cindrella though we're all quite pretty. LOL) off we went. ran down the station esclator and into the train in just 10 min. hahahah.

grabbed mos food then headed to the tent they've pitched for the event. i managed to catch a glimpse of miss koh, but skinny was like did u see glenn? did u see glenn? did u see glenn? hahahah.. this girl ar.. but anyways, the crowd there was pretty overwhleming. *ahem* the indian station won eventually becos they've got SO MANY supporters.

quick quick eat lunch then ta da in the cab and reached office at ard 1.35/40. we should do this more often.... =D

my phone has got a great sense of humor. it works sometimes, and sometimes it don't. hmmm.. okay.. so i dropped it several times these few days... BUT. i paid 198 bucks for you k!! hahaha. *big deal*

i was thinking of getting a 3G phone. then think again... i don't really need such a gd phone. or maybe i don't need a change of phone though it's cranky, and getting crankier each day. it still works lar. =D

my fren has got this phone which i was shocked to see.. u know nokia 300 series (think it was 3 yrs back) it's green in colour, it's fat, the keypads are all linked up. no camera, radio (i don't think so leh...), no colour screen. i mean... who on earth still carries such phone? err.. my ma still do, but she hardly use her phone so she doesnt give a damn. BUT... my fren.. err... yea still uses that.

maybe i do understand a wee bit. the logic behind the phone. you don't need a very nice phone. As long as it's still useable, call-able, sms-able, why bother to spend such money? why bother to follow the world and run for the treasures of this world. they won't last you for an eternity. treasures in heaven they do.

i guess i learn everyday. even a 300 series phone which hardly anyone would use now. treasures in heaven can last you more than what this world can offer.

okay.. a new song will be up soon. it's dirt good lar. chinese though. =D

i don't feel like doing my report today. so i shan't do anything for just for today. hahah. the weekends i'll probably pia for it. hahaha. yes, some last min work (again). =P

anyways.. do u guys find me weird? hahahah. i tot i behave weirdly sometimes. maybe i do hor.. split personalities. hahahah. ah.. it's difficult to know me, but i think my church mates know me pretty well... you guys better lor.

btw, i got another blog at moblog. hahahah. for fun for fun. and i can jus stick my pretty face over at that site. u mean i can do it over at blogger? really meh...?? i jogged, ate less jus now. my aim is to lose 5 kg this yr!! hahaha. actually.. it's okay. don't see me small small. i weigh quite a bit i think. =D

right. im sleepy though it's only 1050. gd nite.

mulitple posts

media player playing: let's get loud - jennifer lopez

im feeling out of sorts today or maybe lately. i couldn't get down to doing my report though it's dued in less than 2 wks, or 2 wks exactly. are you feeling sian-rish? lol. i wanna go town tmr... but if i go i'll be alone cos no one is interested in gg. and i'm gg there prolly for an hr or 2 then head back home to try do something to my report. this kind of feeling... sian-rish-sim is totally freaky. don't like. hahahah.

i think i do miss X. maybe i havent someone else that's like X for sometime. hahaha. at least he believed in me that i'll do radio (only at that pt of time) and yes..i got into sch radio. only sch radio lar. hahaha. but i thought he believing in me would rather be sufficient. i guess not many people knew abt X maybe only my sch mates.

i've known him for a few yrs and hmm.. i thought this guy has got a sense of humor and pretty intelligent, knows what he wants in life. i guessed he pretty much inspired me and gave me lots of opportunties to be nearer to my dream. i appreciated his kind gesture. man.. do u know how much i miss him?

i was in school.. then as i looked around.. this was where i bumped into him.. this was where i met him... this was where we were sat for lunch.. this was what he bought for me... i turned to mh and said.. maybe all these while he hasn't left that place deep within, he left physically.

he has occupied that place for a pretty long time. hahaha. he's so selfish!! okay, not funny. my heart is pretty heavy now. no more of his msn, no more of his smses, no more of his calls "eh.. turn ard, i behind you".

i'll probably won't see him in near future or anywhere. i'm leaving sch.. soon. and he'll probably graduate and go to NS. but having him in my life for that short period has been memorable.

life goes on with or without him.

media player playing: the day we find love - 911


the road back to ngee ann on 184 was a wee bit nostalgic. many thoughts occupied my mind and man... i miss school. my first stop was actually SIM where i got to apply for my course and err.. hmm... i didn't have my result slips with me. aiyo. i threw my result slips away. i've got no idea where i placed all my certs, prob somewhere, somewhere in those big brown envelopes hidden away in those drawers.

got back to ngee ann and it's open house!! my purpose of gg back is to eat the laksa at canteen 1 and the muah chee. no laksa, no muah chee. only yong tao fu. but at least i saw some familiar faces. ah tong, that pretty gd looking lecturer (watever is his name. hahah), earnie, elyn and mable. where's the rest??!! yea.. y shld they be back in sch on a saturday?

talking abt 184. i've always like this formerly known as transisland bus. the air conditioning has always been strong, it's long, and much more spacious compared to that err.. pretty lousy SBS 154. furthermore, 184 takes a shorter route. so yup, i like 184. hahahah. :)

was just walking ard sch.. and well.. suddenly thought of X. wonder how's he... how's sch, how's life and how he looks like now. i havent seen him since.. woah.. like previous previous sem. i used to see him ard though we're in different builidings and course, i'll just bump into him ard sch. heh.

so many memories some of which were bitter and sweet. i once heard someone asked if you've got the power to change the past, what would you change? the other person replied i won't change anything, cos if i changed anything that wouldn't be my life. things happen for a reason and purpose, to make you grow and learn. (translated from chinese).

how true.. to make you grow and learn.

media player playing: the day we find love - 911


the road back to ngee ann on 184 was a wee bit nostalgic. many thoughts occupied my mind and man... i miss school. my first stop was actually SIM where i got to apply for my course and err.. hmm... i didn't have my result slips with me. aiyo. i threw my result slips away. i've got no idea where i placed all my certs, prob somewhere, somewhere in those big brown envelopes hidden away in those drawers.

got back to ngee ann and it's open house!! my purpose of gg back is to eat the laksa at canteen 1 and the muah chee. no laksa, no muah chee. only yong tao fu. but at least i saw some familiar faces. ah tong, that pretty gd looking lecturer (watever is his name. hahah), earnie, elyn and mable. where's the rest??!! yea.. y shld they be back in sch on a saturday?

talking abt 184. i've always like this formerly known as transisland bus. the air conditioning has always been strong, it's long, and much more spacious compared to that err.. pretty lousy SBS 154. furthermore, 184 takes a shorter route. so yup, i like 184. hahahah. :)

was just walking ard sch.. and well.. suddenly thought of X. wonder how's he... how's sch, how's life and how he looks like now. i havent seen him since.. woah.. like previous previous sem. i used to see him ard though we're in different builidings and course, i'll just bump into him ard sch. heh.

so many memories some of which were bitter and sweet. i once heard someone asked if you've got the power to change the past, what would you change? the other person replied i won't change anything, cos if i changed anything that wouldn't be my life. things happen for a reason and purpose, to make you grow and learn. (translated from chinese).

how true.. to make you grow and learn.

i was out with the 3 girls last night, as we were waiting for the train. i asked V

me: eh.. so hong kong or taiwan? or shanghai also can that place not bad. or bangkok lar, i feel like gg bangkok and it's cheap. or... maybe KL..

v(probably lost for words)

me: so how?

v: aiya.. just stick to the original plan.

HAHHAHA. i think it's really me. just BASH me lar. i'm damn indecisive. hahahah.

pics of the last few days will hopefully be up soon. cos report is more impt, just 2 more weeks!!