Happy pills, anyone?

i've got a feeling, i'm at the bottom of a valley now.

how?

feeling sick, tired, restless, the sian-ni-ism all over me. =(

think the thought of studying for exams, and having to go through exams when you're not feeling too good makes me sick again. double the dosage. hahah

how?

i need some happy pills.

Down but going up soon

sick.

and i think it's kinda serious. i probably won't be able to make it for 1 or 2 papers. hahah. it's that serious.

no no. 不是断手断脚, even 断手断脚, i'll still go for exams lor. like.. err.. how i went in with crutches for my jap paper. the jap teacher was like... "joyce san, are you okay? you need help?" hahah. help me carry my crutches up the stairs? hehe

but thank God, im really getting better. i haven't been able to sleep well for the past few days, but yes.. im still trying to study lar. hahahah. how can not study? it's my last semester man!!! and pls pls pls.. even if i got to defer my papers, dont fall within my holiday week.. like tat i can go RMIT and take my papers already lar.

Anyways, i got my photocard driving licence today!!! Yippiee!!! haha. nice nice. cos. there's this really pretty face there. =P

我是一个很看的开的人啦，不会让自己难过太久. 虽然很想正常的到学校考试，可是也没办法吧. 那么。。就要调好心情，在家努力直道考完为止咯。我期待的是。。。我的holiday阿！！！

大家，加油哦！！！

感恩

playing: 牛仔很忙 - 周杰伦

我还蛮感恩的
因为我知道，很多时候凭我自己或家人的力量是做不来的

想一想这些年。。。
真的真的要感恩
我很幸福，不能说幸运
因为我不信‘幸运’这两个字

我觉得，我一个人，什么都不是
凭什么，拥有现在的一切？
只能说，上帝，他很照顾我，照顾我的家人
我是幸福的 =]

所以，要感恩。

要收拾好现在的心情
为自己做点什么，为自己负点该有的责任
you are responsible for yourself, 是我常说的
现在，该以身作则了

我要再次出发
做些我好久没做的事了

我相信，上帝，在一次也会在我身边 =]

大家，加油哦！！ ^_^

Joyce...

BEAMS.... =D

Right. i passed my driving test!! wooo hooo!!! Thank God!! (font size 89)

was really gan cheong, bursting with anxiety but i'm bursting with joy now!!! HAHAH. damn shuang to pass lar.

i went to the test with a 平常心. cos.. even my instructor didnt give a high take on me passing, and im not very good too lar. hahaha. Wah.. especially yesterday, the instructor say.. i think u'll have immediate failure. wah.. pui pui pui!!! wat nonsense lor!!! -_-"

then.. the skies were dark and grey. went for my warm up and after warm up, when i entered into the bbdc builiding, it started to rain, and i think quite heavily. so rested for a while in that builiding,went for test with no rain!!! hahaha.. thanks to those who prayed for me lar. :)

anyways. i tot i had a immediate failure, or accumulated alot of demerit pts. in the circuit only i had that feeling. hahah. my slope was horrible, the car rolled back. twice!! once in the circuit, once on the road. the tester didn't tick anything on the paper, or shld i say.. he didnt even take out the paper to tick tick tick. ah.. like tat, immediate failure le lar, cos he never do anything mah...

so. after circuit, i figured... i shld jus heck care, and just drive. when i got back to the building, the tester.. shiew shiew shiew... went up to the briefing room, i slowly walked. cos.. know i failed le mah. then in less than 15sec, before i can warm my butt on the seat, he ticked ticked and said "on slope. must apply handbrake lar!!" then gave me back my IC and the result paper.

eh? passed? hahah. with 14pts. WAHAHAHA.. i was...a bit lost. so fast ar? u mean i passed?

then while talking to jean.. i cried. HAHAHA. cos.. really 被吓到。我真的以为，完了完了...

and yes, thank God still... can't do it alone, really. and ppl.. i'm a qualified driver liao!! hahaha. bursting with joy lar.

oh.. so my licence will state 10/10 2007. wat nice numbers... hehe =P

Joyce....

playing: breathing - lifehouse


is nervous. gan cheong. bursting with anxiety.

在爱情的世界里

playing: 无言歌 - 苏塔绿

还蛮喜欢苏塔绿，他们的歌还不错听。=]

the other day we were talking about if a girl will mind the education level of her partner. Let's not say if they're together, an assumption they are interested in each other.

Hmm..for me, really, education... hahaa i dont know man. Maybe i do? but 喜欢的时候会真的在意吗？i see r/s as a long term thing, whether the guy can provide and stuff. HAHAH.. see, really long term right?

was talking to mum today, and somehow we talked about this. Abt the education level of a guy. Mum said " sometimes, didn't study alot, still can do well in life."

如果。。。我真的喜欢上学历比我低的男生，男生也喜欢我。那么。。。 就会真的跟他在一起吧。

因为，毕竟，遇到你喜欢他，他又喜欢你的人不是那么容易。

在爱情的世界里，没有对或错。没有谁付出的多，谁付出的少，重要的是，喜欢对方，互补对方所欠缺的。开心就好。不是吗？

有时候，看看周围的人群，是有点孤单。可是有人却说过，你一个人久了，就会习惯。（那个人好像是我。哈哈）

我也不知道自己想要的是什么。有时候觉得一个人其实也很好，有时候觉得寂寞，就会想要找到那个他。

到现在为止，那个他还没出现。有种感觉。。。好像快了。哈哈。

为什么？因为我。。。21岁了阿。=]

大家。。周末愉快！！

The Answer

We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they are good for us - they help us learn to endure. And endurance develops strength of character in us, and character strengthens our confident expectation of salvation.
Romans 5:3-4

In case you've always been asking why. You've got the answer now. =]

发泄

这变成我发泄的一个管道

今天什么东西都进不了
好沮丧哦 =[

我看看那本书
再看看那堆积如山的notes我的心沉了一下，不只一下吧，是很多下

不喜欢这种期间 哈哈
因为好闷
我一直以来不是一个很用功的人，能来到最后一年，哈哈，真的要感谢上帝
要感恩阿~~~

算了
女人。。。发泄一下就好了（还是就只有我？）
我心情真的好多了一点点

当然会对自己好咯
读完这个，就去看dvd？

好啦，在读书的人，就加油啦
我也帮不了你什么 哈哈

晚安 =]

here n there

playing: some soundtrack

i ran and didn't study much. books make me go gaga (in a negative way) haha.

anyways, i was supposed to head down to sch to study and realised... i forgot to bring my tb. -_-
u tell me, study wat? then.. walked back home. hahaha. my life is so dirt interesting.

i wanna count down.. less than two months to my trip. Yippee!! =]

this blog will be revamped after my exams. i always do sth to it after exams, no exception this time round. =]

(mum jus gave me a slice of papaya.. and ewwwww.... 我不喜欢木瓜。真的不喜欢。。。）